Hello, I had an emergency cesarean 6 weeks ago, this was a shock for me and I'm still feeling upset about it, mainly because it was not what I thought would happen at all, but also because I felt the cause was the midwifes fault as she was negligent of me. Physically I'm disappointed too because my tummy is still huge, I look 5 months pregnant, my tummy is firm and bloated and round! the midwife said it would have gone down by now, it has stopped going down, just stays this size, also every time I look in the mirror or try clothes on I really can't stand the sight, especially as it is a reminder of my disappointing experience. Does anyone know if this is normal for your tummy to be this way? I'm really desperate to know if I will return to normal, as I feel like the midwife has taken too much from me, my experience of birth because she couldn't be bothered to do things right and also she gave me false hope which ended in disappointment too. I don't even mind that I have stretch marks or a scar, its still looking pregnant that is so hard, Im a size 8/10 usually except my tummy won't allow me to even wear things size 12

If anyone knows anything about the recovery process or the time it takes or just if the truth is that it is a permanent part of me now, then I'd be so happy for any information.
Thanks for reading. x