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I am new here and seeking advice for obtaining counseling for PTSD r/t the topic of childhood sexual molestation.
I am a middle age male who was assaulted as a young child by my mother.
I was later molested by a 'new age therapist' when I was 17 back in the early 70's.
There are numerous counselors in the yellow pages, and even sites on-line, but they are predominantly female run and unwilling to allow my participation. I have been exposed to some who are even assaultive, and caused far more damage than the original abuse and molestation. The last one held my insurance card, refusing to let me leave until she had called me dangerous and a dangerous person. I can not describe the violent language used toward me on a supposedly 'Safe Place' on-line because the moderator would ban me. And when I disclosed this to the minister at my church, they notified every leader to not allow me to participate in church activities, and even put spy-ware on my computer to see if I viewed porn.
It has taken me all my life to gain simple knowledge of issues relating to my family life and expectations I should have toward a wife, and I have only a few simple questions I would really like to answer, but have absolutely no where to safely turn.
The chance to meet other people with a similar history of PTSD would be nice, but counseling from an educated provider would be a definite help.
I do not know where to begin to turn.
Thanks; (afraid to leave my name)