I was recently raped by my ex-husband, and I am waiting to find out if I am pregnant from it. I should know by this weekend, although the waiting has made me paranoid! (Are my nipples bluish? Is this dizziness? <IMG SRC="http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/dizzy.gif">) I do not believe in abortion, because after having 2 kids, I know more than ever how precious the end result of pregnancy is. I did get some counseling to help me deal with my emotions, and have plenty of comforting friends. I just wanted to hear from any one else who has had a similar experience of a pregnancy after rape?
I read your email and just wanted to let you know you're in my thoughts. What an ordeal to go through! You must be a very strong woman. That's great that you have been seeking counseling and that you have a strong network of supportive friends.
I've never experienced what you're going through, but I know lots of women who have. I hope you're able to put your mind at ease soon. Please let us know whether you're pregnant when you find out!
First, if I may ask, is the guy in jail? I know he is your ex, but rape is rape. Is he the father of your 2 children because if he is and not to make light of this, but at least they awill all share the same gene pool. Please don't take that sarcastic I am serious. Plus you know him enough to give full details to authorities. I mostly want to say how composed and strong you sound. When I first read your post title my jaw dropped and my heart sank for you and then I felt a little better to see your words showing you are brave. Hang in there and since you seem to be chosing to keep the baby then just know that no matter what the circumstance was initially, your baby will love you so much and unconditionally. Cousenling is a great idea and it is probably your best bet besides praying. I will pray for you and your little ones (all of them).
God Bless you for being such a strong woman! I can't imagine being in your shoes... you sound so strong and ready to take on the world. Good Luck, please keep us posted.
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Megan - beyond excited mommy to be.
EDD MAY 29 2003
Thank you to the sweet ladies who replied back to me! Gosh! I had no idea there were so many supportive strangers out there! To those who mention God, you hit the nail on the head! He is exactly where my strength and sound mind comes from! If I didn't have Him after the relationship I'VE been in, I'd be in pretty sad state by now! However, I am doing fine. I got my period this morning and I am glad for the suspense to be ended. I would've cherished a new baby, but I am happy I can just keep focusing on the children I've already been blessed with. Not to mention, pray for a good husband in the future who can add to my brood in the right time and make us a whole family!
P.S. I did not press charges, for my own sake... I didn't want to go through any more trauma with exams and questionings, etc. I was told that this decision was mine alone to make, and I am glad I wasn't pressured to do more. However, he is not allowed on the premises any longer, and should he ever attempt anything again, he WILL be going to prison! Things have gone smoothly since though, and I am not afraid.
Woh, what aload off your mind! Thank goodness it is all working out in the master plan huh? Good for you for beeing so strong and so brave. It's okay to cry though, but keep your head above water as much as you can. Hopefully when we see you back here, it will be for a new baby in a happy relationship! Good Luck!
