ann4890

I have a really important question about what happened to me and what it is considered or if it was rape or not.

First time- I got pretty drunk and a guy came onto me even though he knew i had a boyfriend. I think he may have been drunk too. I vaguely remember I woke up half way through after being blacked out and he was fingering me and touching me in the privates. I remember trying to push him away not comfortable with it. it was my first time being fingered and im sure i wouldnt have wanted it to be like this. I woke up in bed with him and felt panicked and left. After this i havent let anyone touch me down there and its been five years


Second time-
Still a virgin i was on drugs and a drug dealer started pulling my pants down and trying to have sex with me. I dont remember saying either no or yes. He tried to penetrate but since i was a virgin he couldnt. Again im sure i wouldnt have wanted my first time to be like that. Im pretty sure he was sober.


I also got really drunk crashed my car a few weeks ago and when i was in the police station i started screaming i dont want them to touch me. make them stop touching me. i dont know why i did that.


If someone could please help me sort this out.


Annie