| was i sexually abused as a child?
I am 31 years old and i have had memories of when i was younger and the older boy next door touching me, he only came to visit next door here and there but i know clearly that he was a few years older than me and would want to touch me, i was under ten when the touching went on and i let him for whatever reason but i have never ever told anyone about it, only now is it coming to me that i was perhaps abused, i didnt realise it was so wrong back then as I was pretty naive growing up
i was 16 and then had my first boyfriend and thinking he loved me allowed him to take my virginity. I know that when i was a little girl i had some sort of fancy for the older boy next door and it's not something i ever think of but lately it has been on my mind and i am so confused. It would explain a lot about my personality but it is never something that i have ever spoken about for fear of what my parents would think of me. Can someone please help me with this
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