Thank you, I was just down last night. I think it was just that I was just me going down on my methadone too fast. It just might be chemical because they are more like swings because they are way up. My husband keeps feeling my forehead because things are just not bothering me at all and I am like no sweat hunny. I mean I am normally like that but over things that would normally bother me. But late at night when I am alone and thinking I get sad and I shouldn't be. I am similar to you, noone even knows how bad things are because I always keep a brave face and say things are fine.
Thank you, but I am curious why don't you like playing in your fecal matter?
Today my mom came over and from a trip from San Antonio and I stood up and walked to her and for a minute she kept talking and then she was stunned and then she was speechless and I hugged her and kissed her.
I was thinking just to be able to walk and hug and love. We all could not have our mental capacity and that snapped me out of this.
I am trying to think of it like this god is trying to show me what I have and to appreciate it and that is making me a better person and it it truly is.
I look at things the even smaller things and I am living better. I always have but even moreso now. It has to be the methadone and I already put a positive spin on that if that is the only side effect- rock out...
I was also having pain and was bummed today because my stim felt like it was burning and my leg hurt, I was at first down and like great I get my hand lose my feet. Get my feet and now the burning watch something wrong with the stim. I was like there is always extreme happiness and then dissappointment and then I figured I should call my pm and let him know about the methadone and mysuspicions and yup mood swings. So you know when you find out something is causing something and it is only short term and it changes your outlook? Well now I feel great, I really do. I think no matter how bad and burnt the grass looks is always dirt and weeds somewhere else- I just pulled that out of my asno...lol
Thanks for the beautiful Halmark card it made me feel much better!!! Nikki