Really Bad Day - Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy Message Board

brighteyes_007 · 08-22-2005, 10:05 PM

IT is the kind of day that everything is coming on you at once. Thankfully I am not in THAT Much pain today but one o my daughters has a sinus infection, one son has tonsilitis, and the other has pneumoniae. Both girls started their respective colleges today and my loving and caring husband decided that I was totally helpless today.

I have not cried in a long time but today I just seem to keep bursting into tears.

I really think I am loosing it. I know when I say that I just dont know what I have to get up for in the morning there is just no purpose..that many of you will understand.

hope all are happier then I right now,

Love,
brighteyes

Gaollan · 08-23-2005, 12:05 PM

((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))) ))))))))))))))

I know about days like you're having. Everything happens at once and it seems that it's all happened with the sole purpose of driving you over the edge and send you screaming into the day or night.

Just hang in there. This day will pass soon and tomorrow WILL be better! :-) Hope your kids get better fast though. Glad to here the pain isn't horrible for you. Just try to think positive and pamper yourself! I like a nice long bath or just close myself off in a room and read and eat chocolate!!

Whatever works. Give yourself a break and let the emotion out. It does help and we can't be strong every minute of every day no matter how much we want to.

Karen

cblasingame · 08-23-2005, 09:13 PM

Awww I'm sorry Brighteyes that you are having such a bad day, but let me tell you i certainly can relate. I havent posted in a while, just read whats going on, things just seem to get worse with me. The other issue is, I have a 20 yr old son (who I am very very close to), well....he has decided that he needs to grow up and do things for himself and on his own. Although i couldnt agree more and be more proud of him, not only is he my youngest, but the closest to me....It couldnt come at a WORSE time for me. The things I can do these days are SOOOOOO limited because of the pain..it seems that all i am good for is to be a maid...and wait on people, because thats all that I can do without the excruciating pain we all feel. I have great family support, and i thank god everyday for that...but when he sees me crying, he asks whats wrong..I cant tell him...he needs to be the independent young man i taught him to be....I can't hold him back because of an unfortunate thing that happened to me....any suggestions....It's a terrible feeling to be useless..anyone else feel that way?..like u have no purpose anymore?..Claire

Budko · 08-25-2005, 11:12 AM

Purpose Free here!

I use to be very active in the Working World, almost to the point I was a obsessive. It took me 2 years to come to terms with being Ill and having my own standards and not Socities Standards.

I totally understand about your Son, although my son is 6, he is my Best Friend. He is the one to tell me that those shoes do not go with those pants. He always says he loves me and that I am the Best Mom in the World(sometimes I find that hard to believe, when I am not at me best). Well, all in one week, he started Kindergarten, found a friend (that he can not get enough of) and does not want me to help him anymore. Boo! Hoo! I have been crying all week. I can't imagine how my children will be in the teens and twenties. I feel alone in this big house, no kids screaming, even my Talking Parrot ceases to speak and my dogs sleep all day. I think it is harder to take my mind off the pain, when I am alone.

I hope you feel better! It is very hard to keep on.....keeping on, when your on is off.
If that did not make sense, blame it on RSD. He! He!

Wishing you a Zero,
Kim

brighteyes_007 · 08-25-2005, 01:24 PM

PURPOSE FREE,

THose are exactly the right words. I think why do I even have to get outta bed because there is nothing for me to do except look at this house and hurt. I was a Clinical Lab Manager for 25 years before I was forced to retire becuase of RSD. A very rapid fullfilling career in constant use of my brains knowledge and descision making. Now, I get to sit!!

It has been 3 years and although I have "accepted" I will not be able to practice the profession I love..I still feel useless.

Today is a better day the arent flowing,,

GOD"S PEACE

brighteyes