Hi Chris,
I'm just about done with the SSD process...waiting for a final decision. I saw two Dr's...one for the physical exam and one for psychological. I read somewhere (probably on this board) if you're prescribed narcotics, mood-stabilizers or anti-depressants of any kind they scheduled you to meet with the Psychologist. Or, Psychiatrist...I'm not even sure what he was?? And, I also read that most SSD applicants with severe pain are scheduled for a Psych consult.
I met with the Dr very briefly. We discussed my emotional state...he asked if I was sad (that's an understatement) and he did a short-term memory test ... asked me to repeat increasingly long series of numbers ... forward then backward!! Let's just say I got through most of the forward number series, but when it came to repeating them backwards, I was lost!!
It wasn't a bad experience (except for the wait - 3 hours!), but I did feel that it was a bit rehearsed and rushed. I can understand because they do this all day, every day and they know what they're looking for. My short-term memory is pretty much shot! I think it's a combination of RSD, meds and not being as mentally active as I was when I worked 60 hours a week. I try to do the NY Times crossword puzzle on Fri, Sat & Sun. I find it helps but it's not the same as working every day.
I completely understand what you mean when you say your "fall from grace". I want to be needed, respected and recognized again. I was at the top of my game when RSD slammed me to the ground 2 1/2 yrs ago. I try not to dwell on it, but I just can't believe what's happened to me. I feel unimportant now, too. I guess my job defined me more than I realized and I'm having a very hard time with it. I loved getting up early, going to work, putting in 12 hours and getting up the next day to do it all over again. Yesterday, I was thinking about how I'd be starting the budget process for 2009 (my favorite time of year) ...
IF I was working. It really made me sad. I miss the action
Please let us know how it goes....GOOD LUCK!!
Vicki