It's kind of weird with my pain...it's like Im so stuburn, the only people who ever see me crack with my pain is family or percussion ppl (my second family)....and at school I just withdrawl so I can just walk it off...And I have two good legs and one arm so I suck it too my side and work at school and at work work
With some people thinking Im faking it I don't show doctors no more my pain...this came to a problem last summer I saw a specialist...I got withdrawn from the person, kept quiet and didn't say much at all, red in the face hand shakey and discoloured he told me and and my mom that I was Obviously not in enough pain to get more help...I liked it that way because I don't want a nerve block...I don't really know what they do. Will I loose the use of my arm

I would rather be in pain and play percussion....I know it sounds aweful but...
Now this summer again Im going back to see him because it's flaring bad and Im taking my Amitriptyline (Elavil)...but even with the increasing dosage Im up at 4am not sleeping

...so yeah :s anyways Im nervous going back to him because Im not sure what to expect or tell him...but I guess he's the one that wont think Im a looney since he's seen so many of these cases...I hopw this makes sense