Hscholar

Me and my ex-girlfriend are trying to stay friends after breaking up, but it's kind of hard....no, really hard. She has always been the type of girl who will stay friends with all of her ex's when they break up, and I have always "not" stayed friends after the break up. I have her on instant messenger and she has an account for email through my family. Both of our families had met at a big dinner get together in our 4th month of dating, and I have truly loved her family from the beginning. We even found out, through much research, that our families kind of new each other in the American Revolution-my ancestor is General Joseph Warren, and her ancestor is one of the men that carried General Warren's body when he died....(wierd). Everytime we see each other, to talk, as friends, there is still such a physical attraction between us and we end up kissing for a little bit before parting. It goes no further, but that still leaves the thought in the head of whether we should even see each other as friends. We are totally wrong for each other as individuals, but we have had so much chemistry from the beginning. It may not be the chemistry needed to survive as a couple, but I've never felt this way about anyone-so good and yet so bad. I've been thinking of taking her off of my buddy list for IM's, and taking her off of my family's email account. I don't know if there's a little part of me that hopes we will reconcile, when I know in my heart of hearts that we should not be together. God I hate this! This has always been my worst problems in life, WOMEN! Everyone says that the right one will come along when I least expect it, but I am 35 years old now and I thought this was the one-in the beginning. She definitely has a lot of issues to work out with herself, and then she sits there and tells me what "I" should work on for my future relationships. When I talk to my family and friends about what she says, they say that it's her, not me, and don't let he do this to me. ****, what do I do??????