well actually we both came up with the idea of engagement.
and the main reason for that is the fact that we feel extremely close to each other and love each other so very much.
but also it would give us sumthing more concrete to hold on to.
dont get me wrong, i know that an engagement cannot guarantee anything.
but we just felt that our relationship is extremely special and an engagment is just a special symbol of the strong feelings that we have for each other.
i did tell him that i dont want to be any sort of obligation and that if he does find sumone i wont cling onto him.
although he keeps reassuring me that nothing like this is going to happen i know that it is very well possible.
personally i have not felt this way about anyone else before... my fiancee just means the whole world to me and i dont know what i would do without him.
i'm so afraid of losing him... i knwo that long distance relationships rarely work out.
and he is going to be in another country.
the thought of that really scares me.
each time i think about it i just get so depressed. i really want to make this relationship work out somehow but dont know how possible it is.