Ugh, it feels like it's been forever. My boyfriend has been in South America for the past 18 days... I'm just checking in because I know a few of you wanted me to keep you updated on how I was doing (thanks
He managed to find an internet cafe and has kept me up to date - I don't know how many of you saw the whole thing that happened (The brides brother of this whole shindig broke his neck.. turns out his surgery was successful, but he has only very limited movement in his hands currently, so it's still touch and go - my bf decided to continue on the trip, every one was just so glad the boy was alive...).
He's emailed and called a few times since, and he definitely seems to be feeling more open and affectionate after all that's happened. I hope it's true that when he gets home he comes back realizing what he has in me. I'm partially afraid that it's just the whole "missing" thing, he might come back and be just amazing for a while, then settle back into being a little unappreciative?
I guess he was never in the extreme with that, he's been pretty good about it - but he's made me so excited for his return! Seriously the things he's said on the phone, all of the times he's called because he said he just needed to hear my voice and missed me. He seems to be on the same wave length, saying he can't wait to just come home and sit on the couch and watch movies with me again (ironically, that's one of the things I miss the most right now, just cuddling and watching movies too) - things like that.
So... I've been doing okay I guess. I miss him terribly, but I haven't been some home-bound weeping pile of whiney-ness. Thank goodness. Actually I don't think I've cried since the first week he was gone O.o One more week - and he'll be back home with me (next Saturday).
I don't know how everything will effect him once it hits home (the accident, his saving the guys life... everything) and he's no longer distracted by vacation events - but he said he thinks I'll be good therapy to help him absorb everything.
Seven more days still feels like forever, but I'm finally starting to let myself get a little excited about his return... before it just seemed like too far away, impossibly far! Now... just one more week!
I've had friends in town from Chicago since last Saturday, they go home next Tuesday, so I've been keeping extremely busy - and I'm off work until the 14th, unless I decide to go back sooner to pass the time.
Anyway.. that's the update. I miss him... really wish he was back home already, but it's only 7 more days now, I think I can do that just fine at this point. What's 7 after 18, right?
Time can still feel free to zip by
I've had enough 'absense of the love of my life' time thank-you-very-much!!