Marty ~ Hi
Sorry that you are going through all of this. I read through your last thread and you sound alot better after 2 weeks.
How do you feel in terms of the anxiety?? That should be your first concern in making sure that you take care of yourself. Are you able to go out and take care of everything in terms of you & the kids???
In reading through your posts I can't help but think that your husband may be involved with somebody else. Is this possible?? It seems as if he has emotionally and physically abandoned you and a man wouldn't do this unless he has definite intentions. That's just how I see it. And personally, after how things have been in your marriage I don't see why you would wish to salvage anything when you really seem to not have anything worth salvaging. This is a rare occurrence where two people virtually do not communicate or give more than a 2 minute phone conversaton to one another for so many years. I am amazed that it lasted as ong as it has.
When you went to counselling what did he say??? And what did you say???
I just think that you have way too much anger & resentment inside and I don't know if there is enough of a committment or love in this marriage to "fix" it. It almost seems in your posts that you are actually functioning better without him. What do you think??
Please know that you can come here anytime to vent....there are many here who will help you through this. ~ Goody