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I guess I always make it sound worse than it is. He has very nice qualities, a good job, makes dinner for me, gives me back massages all the time, likes being around me, very responsible, always calls and does what he says he's going to do etc....

It's just on his free time he does hang around guys watching sports and drinking beer though he doesn't get drunk and doesn't even like drinking just likes being around the guys watching the football games. He did smoke pot when he is younger and still does sometimes. He did play golf but doesn't now and works around the house and has to cook and clean for his mother. When he does go out it's with the guys and he does smoke pot sometimes.

I've dated alcoholics and I know he's not one but maybe it feels the same. All his friends are married and have kids and jobs. One of his friends kids just got accepted to harvard etc. It's not that they are all drunks but maybe because of my past that's how it feels. Now his woman friend, that's another story. She does smoke pot every day but also has a good job. I guess I like her the least especially since she seems to be the most screwed up.

We do have a good time most of the time but he lives over an hour away and spends the whole weekend with me. It's a small apartment and I think it gets to me sometimes. I think because he hasn't been in many relationships he's hard to talk to but he's generally a nice guy. He's more domistic than I am, always does the dishes and cleans my apartment sometimes when I'm teaching a class on Saturday.

I just wish he had done more with himself besides having his buddies. They do act like kids when they get together. The other guys have wives and families all these years, he just has them.