Sometimes i dont understand my boyfriend at all.. Me and him we live 20 minutes from each other (a 20 min drive)..and we only meet up once a week..sometimes once every two weeks because we're both at college and he has "work to do" or is "tired
" whatever. He hardly calls me..we hardly talk. I call him sometimes..but i just feel like such a loser calling him..and you know..i do the right thing and tell him how i feel even tho it feels like im asking for something that should come natrually (he should want to call right) blah..so we have this talk and then he starts calling every day or every two days and then he chills out and doesnt call for a while(its been like this for like 2 years now)..i know its a small thing but it , it makes me feel like he doesnt miss me and it makes me question our relationship.
Anyways, i dont think there'll be a relationship to question after next weekend coz we have this thing to go to... and its a family thing..and im HORRIBLY shy around his family..i just sit there and smile and answer questions politely but thats about it..which makes me feel ilke an idiot but i cant help it.. Ive only started to get to know them recently and yeah
Im still shy ..but he doesnt understand it..he thinks its immaturity.
He assumes its ok to be shy the first time but not after ive seen them for like 3-4 times..but my shyness is still there...and im starting to think im a freak too...im not like this around other people..just his family..i just care so much about what they'll think and i shouldnt but i do and argh!!
So yeah im just so depressed right now i think im gonna dye my hair black.