I've missed you too!!! Please don't beat yourself up about relapsing and going back to your ex...if you hadn't then you probably wouldn't have realized that your heart has moved on or been able to experience that awesome kiss with the other guy!!! I am happy for you too.....you surely deserve so much happiness in your life.
Now, as far as your being available to support your ex through his illness, I think it would be a wonderful gesture on your part to be able to do so, so long as you are able to continue to be honest with him as well as yourself about your wanting to do so without sacrificing yourself and your overall happiness in the process of doing so. Some people are able to do this......lend support to someone who is chronically ill and yet able to grow as a person themselves. Try not to be his sole support......I know that he trusts you and needs you and you should be there for him to the extent that you feel you can be and make it known to him that you do care for him but not in the way that he feels towards you. Allow him the gift of knowing that you do care for him and want to help him through difficult times as someone who truly cares as a friend but tell him that there are boundaries to this in the sense that your feelings for him in terms of boyfriend/girlfriend are over. Let him know that you are interested in supporting him so long as he understands this and doesn't misinterpret your support as something more than what it is.
I sure hope that you continue to stay happy and I am so glad you gave us an upsdate.....I will keep my fingers crossed that the happiness you so deserve comes your way and that you get alot more kisses like the one you got the other day. Great job on being brave enough to give the guy your number....has he called you yet???
Lots of (((HUGS))) ~ Goody