I think my relationship between my family is falling apart.
Well i am an only child, im 17 and my parents are both together, still happily married. My parents only had one kid mainly because when i was born in Poland (where my entire family came from), my dad had a job opporitunity here in the states when i was maybe 2 years old. My mom and i lived with her parents while my dad came to the states to make money, hoping to try to create a hope for us since we werent too wealthy. He came back to Poland a few times over a year and a half to spend time with us, but i missed him most of that time. Eventually he came back, we packed our stuff and moved here to America. My mom started out by cleaning houses and my dad delivered pizzas, now 13 years later we have a very nice house, a nice car, i actually have a car of my own (a great one for my age), and so forth.
Well, i love my parents with all of my heart. But like a regular teen, i argue with them, involuntarily of course, i feel bad later for it. I seem to always be on the computer most of the time. I am either at school, at work, or on the computer. If not any of those, then im out somewhere with my friends. My parents dont really do much outside of the house, they work a good amount of the time, and when they arent working they just sit in the house. Whenever we do have family moments, i just fail to appreciate them as much as i should. Now i realized that i mainly talked to my dad before school (he leaves for work at about the same time), then when he comes home he is just worn out and i, of course, sit on the computer or play videogames, if not then i go to work.
I can never really express to them how much they really mean to me. The best moment we have is when we watch a movie together, which my dad took a week off and we hung out a little more than usual.
Another problem is that i feel like i hurt them all the time. Whenever my dad mentions anything about school, my mind just gets instantly mad, i dont know why. But i dont see him as much as id like to, and whenever i do he mentions school, so i guess my mind feels thats all he really cares about (even though in a normal mental state, i know its not the truth). I get moody with my parents alot, and i just cant help it.
I feel like i have wasted so many years of my life acting like this towards my parents. I appreciate them a ton. Now im older, moving out soon, and i feel like im doing it on a negative note. They are amazing parents, and i made a horrible mistake about this time last year which made them question themselves. But it wasnt really their fault.
Please help guys, just any advice.