Originally Posted by strongernow
I think that I've done so many good things in my life that go rewarded and I acknowledge it but my family does not. It seems that no matter what I do it is like I was rejected at birth. ...
It is like I have nobody.
I know people that are in college and they have everybody at their fingertips. Their cousins, their uncles, their family, everybody is there for them and life just isn't fair for me. I am so bitter and cold because of that and the fact that nobody can give me what I want for once.
I don't know, but I have many of the same feelings myself. The only person in my family that I ever felt truely cared about me and would have done anything for me was my father. But he has since passed, and I was left all alone to fend for myself. Other than my grandmother and two aunts (all from his side), I have no other family in my life.
I feel the same. I get so bitter and angry sometimes, because I look around and see everyone else all having family behind them to support them in some way or another - I mean at least if things fall down, these people have somewhere
to turn to. It's pretty hard going thru life knowing you have no where to turn in your darkest moments. I really believe having family is such a huge part of turning out a successful life. I feel like I am held back from so many things, just because I don't have family - something that is out of my contol.
Well, sorry, didn't mean to be all about me, but, I feel for you. I really do.
I know I have spent my life trying to do my absolute best to make it on my own, and though every area of my life is not where I want it to be, I have come alot further than I ever imagined I would. I guess all I can do is encourage you to do the same and never let anyone else bring you down. I guess, unfortunately, sometimes we can only play the hand we are dealt.
And, for what it's worth, there is at least someone out here that has to deal with the same familial problems.