Oh the blimmin mind games! Mostly, games I put on myself.
See the problem is...sometimes...I regret things I say or do. Not something which is mean or offensive, but sometimes careless. Meaning, I probably didnt think about it too much before I said or did it!
When your interested in a guy who wants to do the iniating with a girl...these "is he or isnt he" games are a given in the beginning. Usually because they will take their time to get to know you first before making their interest known.
Anyway..my problem is...
I let this guy see the side of me that hadnt come out in a long time! I am generally a loud and outgoing person. But tonight..I was even more so. It was getting late and everyone in our group had alot of coffee..you know how it is. I got a little silly.Not immature, but a bit silly, alot of laughing and mucking around. He didnt seem to mind.
Anyway..i had mentioned that from my experience there seems to be 2 kind of Christian guys I come into contact with (I'm a Christian incase u dont know.. And I was saying this to the guy I like and a few other people.) There is the guy who is just too eager to have someone...and then there is the guy who is so focused on God he just isnt interested in any girl.
The guy knows I have had some trouble in the past..as I mentioned I had once before a guy at my bible college stalk me. He brings this back up often!
Afterwards I felt bad...so I said later sent a text message apologising and telling him that I wanted to make sure him and the others knew I wasnt referring to them..I was just making a comment about the guys I used to know of.
He sent me a reply saying "Nah, no worries Jaz! Its all good..."
I still feel like a total fool
Do you think...if he was interested...that he would not be offended by such a comment? Or..have a blown it?