Sorry its sooo long..
SO My question is how to get over the one I love or should I wait for her to possible realize what she is missing?
So, About two weeks ago, I get a call from my girlfriend who says hey come over to my moms we need to talk. So i head over there and we talk...they had a misunderstanding of what was going on with my money and why i wasn't taking my g/f out anymore. well Truth be known that paycheck i was paying security deposits and stuff because I had just recently moved and I also was saving for an engagement ring. This only happened about 2 weeks ago, and just for a further background history. We started dating in January and Fell in love and just head over heals until about June.. She broke it off in June because she wasn't sure I was for her, basically I was her first serious b/f and she wasn't use to someone being there so much.. I assume I smothered her.. so she broke my heart then.. and we went our ways.. i was living with her at that time..so I moved out and tried to move on.. went on a date here and there but was never interested always consumed with the thought and the love for her, and I even went to therapy for it... nothin changed.. then rolls around july. . . so the middle of July. i get a phone call from a number i didn't recognize well it was her, i had deleted her name and number in hopes of not being able to contact her which would only drive her away even more. She asking me if I mistakenly took something of hers .. I said nope, and she said damn its good to hear your voice do you want to come over and hang out for a few.. and I was like sure.. I had a date i was looking forward too the next night .. i didn't think much of this.
so i go over we hang out and talk and she walks me to my car, we hug good bye, but nether of us let go... we set there for 15 min just hugging and crying.. and then we kiss and she says i miss you, and i'll call you tomorrow.. so to cut this part short, we started dating but i wasn't about to move in and smoother her this time. . .but so it lasted maybe 6 weeks and we are talking about getting married the following year and getting engaged in December of this year.. all this stuff is just building up my love for her, and then the bomb.. about two weeks ago...
I get a call from my girlfriend who says hey come over to my moms we need to talk. So i head over there and we talk...they had a misunderstanding of what was going on with my money and why i wasn't taking my g/f out anymore. well Truth be known that paycheck i was paying security deposits and stuff because I had just recently moved and I also was saving for an engagement ring.. cause they aren't cheap... It was a surprise, no one new about it.. but they were questioning me about why i wasn't buying her dinner every now and this.. I said Its only been 2 weeks, Iíve just had a rough 2 weeks.. and explained to them the whole engagement ring thing and they where still not appreciative. It hurt but I figured it would be ok.. So I go out and sell some personal things to pay off a bill and to be able to spend some $ on her.. well, we did and she still acting funny distant.. won't sit on the couch with me want talk to me.. no intimacy ..So i figure maybe she is just stressed I still try and make the best of it.. so the next week she has a long week, hard working 12 hour a day for training. .. Every day I cleaned her condo, washed dishes made food and walked the dog for excursive after My work day which is about 11 hours mon-friday..and that way when she came home it was all a-ok.. she could sit and relax. It worked some days, and then the end of that week. 4 days ago.. so says.. I want a break.. I was crushed. I come back the next day to talk to her more in depth about it, and It manifested into 'its over' ..
then 2 days ago, She calls me and says come hang over.. just as friends. so i go, it didnít' work out. Not comfortable. And so i went home in tears.. after we talked about possible seeing each other again in October... now yesterday i didn't see her, which is good. I wanted too but just out of a necessity that i feel. I know thats not good.
but this morning after a night with no sleep. I got up and just started wierding out cause i was alone. . . and I grabbed some of thing and called her up and said, I need to give you somethingís. she was getting ready for work.. So i head over there give her, her things. And while she doing her make up we got to talk and she said she broke it off because she wasn't being treated like she deserved.. and i know but it was just for those 2 weeks while I caught up and worked a few extra hours... I made it up the next week .. i feel it was just too little to late in her eyes.. Whatís the DEAL!?!?!?!? whats going on, where do i go, who do I see. SHould I wait, or try and move on..