Originally Posted by ksammon
...I don't have anyone to talk I don't have any friends well I do have one but she didn't have anything to say I guess because she doesn't care all that much ...
It always bothers me to hear people having no friends or anyone to talk to. That alone is the tip of the iceberg, i.e. there are a lot more underlying issues that has not come up to see daylight.
First of all, good for you, sleeping around is NOT the way to seek happiness. Second, this is your first love and everything just seems more dramatic while you're in it. So don't work yourself into a frenzy with the ups and downs of it.
I always encourage people to look forward a lot more than backwards. History is for lessons but the present is in your own hands to control and make future. So what both you and BF has some secrets, big deal. (although I'm not condoning the pot smoking) Now that you are both revealing some is actually progress.
Keep the communication lines open and there is always hope. Otherwise, time will turn into barriers. Good Luck.