AlyNally

I am a 30 year old woman who has been married to my husband for almost three years together with him for alomst four years. I have a 9 year old stepson. My husband and I went through the pain of miscarriage in 2003. Since then no matter what "natural means we've tried has been successful. I thought that I had been able to move past this but I'm not sure. For a time I couldn't bring myself to be around pregnant women or newborns because it had me thinking what might have been... I am my husband's second wife.. the first one was a piece of work.. she let my husband support her while she attended college and before the ink had dried on her diploma she took my stepson and left.. it goes without saying that she and I have no relationship with her..I attempted one when my husband and I moved in together since I was the primary caretaker of my stepson due to my husband's work schedule..I try to take the high road when having to interact with her but she makes it quite difficult.. My husband even though he's been divorced from her for years now he still let's her walk all over him when it comes our son.. this makes for a lot of conflict between me and my husband.. I'm comtemplating the future of my marriage at this point.. help