polabear

hi. im new here, so forgive me if i did anything wrong. and sorry for my bad english.

i have kind a sticky situation here, you see i know this one girl about 2+ years ago, and then we met once, just once. i really felt there was something going on, but eventually it doesnt, but we still keep in touch though. but at the mean time, i met someone else, and we became lovers. quite happy i must say, but at this time im still in touch with the first girl, more to friends kind of relationship i guess. the problem now is, i've been seeing this girl a lot now, but still as a friend.

the situation just got stickier, this girl have boyfriend, and this boyfriend of her have a problem, he's a drug addict, and he once drag this girl into drugs. now, i met her again, and help her to get her a job, not much but still okay. she's happy i see, healthier. and now i seem to have fall for her, i think, cause at the same time i felt responsible for her well being. so is this love im feeling or responsibility as a friend.

the first month she was working was good, she was like a new person, full of confidence and very happy (maybe because she was never in touch with her boyfriend) . now just after one month, her boyfriend call and they have conversations, dont know what they talk about. now she got all miserable again. i just hate to see that. i got the feeling her boyfriend would be the death of her.

there was this one night when she got drunk, and she told me a lots of things which she kept from everyone else. and the one thing that really caught me is when she said, she would break off with her boyfriend if i be her boyfriend. which i cannot give her an answer, because i am seeing someone else. so, do i have to brokeup with my girlfriend (which is very impossible) in order to help her, but i do have feelings on her though.

now im really messed up, could it be i love her, or just felt responsible that as her friend, i have to take care of her.