| | What do i do? Do i cut off contact with her or...?
Heres the back story. Ill give you the whole thing, then maybe you can tell me if im being stupid, or if im right or what.
Back in february i met this girl and her boyfriend. Id never had friends before then so i was surprised when i found i got on with these guys really well.
I got on with the girl the most though, simply because shed had similar bad experiences as me and was also mentally ill, like me. she also hugged me, which has never happened to me before.
To begin with everything was awesome. They invited me out every weekend or so, and i really liked being with them. This lasted a couple of months.
Then a few things happened at the same time.
She met this guy on the internet. Well, i met him and introduced them, in a way.
Quickly they became awesome friends, and i tried my hardest to be happy for them, but it eventually turned to jealousy, especially when they started talking on the phone for hours ech night. ive never spoken to her on the phone. obviously i didnt mention my jealousy, and acted as normal.
Then she was taken into care and put up with carers. This put her in a different city, however, she was still staying with her parents every weekend.
she stopped inviting me out, and when i invited her she couldnt make it because 'too much is going on'. In the meantime her and her boyfriend travel up to london to meet this guy from the internet, and they continue talking on the phone. She sends him a letter telling him how awesome it was to see him and what a great person he is. shed never sent me a letter. Theyve already made plans to go up and meet him again in november.
the online conversations with her are now too strained. they never progress past 'how are you' 'im good, how are you' 'fine'.
What do i do? I used to look forward to talking to her, now i dread the tension and depression that comes from wondering wheher she actually likes me any more or not... shes the only person who has ever been nice to me... this is tearing me apart...