Getting over my own mistakes?
I haven't spoken to her in 4 months. It was a really complicated situation, where we fell hard for each other, but she was dealing with a complex break up with someone else, my own past junk started getting in the way. Ultimately I got very clingy, and basically acted like a pathetic loser.
I cried about how I had no/few friends, and how depressed I was...blah blah blah...
And 4 months later am totally embarassed about the way I acted. In the end I told her I was deleting her number. She apologized for yelling at me...and what not.
There's been no contact since then. That was June 8th.
I'm over, I think, wanting to be with her. But I'm soooooo embarassed about the way I acted. I said/admitted so many things to her that are really really embarassing, and I'm not sure how to let go of that or get over it.
A few people have told me the only way is to actually contact her and let her know my perspective on things now.
However, she was the one who pulled away from me, so I don't really know what to do.
I need to let go of this junk. This is what is holding me back, and keeping me stuck in this.
How do you let go of feeling so embarassed about the way you acted??