Originally Posted by minnesotagirl
You sound like you're trapped in depression. Have you ever considered help from a medical professional? I think that should be the first thing on your list. Most of your anxieties and saddness can be treated. Plus, it would be a good idea considering you think you may also have an alcohol problem.
It doesn't sound like it would be healthy for you at all to go to this party -- but it should be OK by now. I think there may be deeper issues for you that are preventing you from healing from this relationship -- is this the girl you were seeing back in May? How long were you together anyway?
If you don't go to the party because of her -- she doesn't have to know that's why you aren't there. It is possible to have other plans, so why wouldn't she just think that? When/if you decline the invite, you can just say you have other plans, and you know what, if you decline, you had better make some!! It is time to take charge of your health and your life, and it is time to stop letting any drama of past relationships get in your way.
Depression, yes. But I will not take medicine for it. I know people who tried that, and it either just made it worse, or made them so out of it that it wasn't worth it.
As far as alcohol goes, I haven't drank alcohol in 4 months. And even back then, it was rarely. I used to have an alcohol problem, a year or two ago.
So 5 months it too long to still be screwed up by it? People tell me it's supposed to take longer than that.
I was blindsided.