My boyfriend and I keep arguing about really dumb things. I feel like if the problem is that he feels I have to agree with everything he says. This pisses me off because when I don't agree with him he gets mad and ignores me and then I feel like if he is trying to manipulate me (this is what my last post was about).
He ignores me until he feels like talking to me. But if I don't call him while he is ignoring me he will kinda get mad, as if I'm doing something wrong. I keep remembering though what this pastor said on tv...Joel O'steen said one day not to let other people enslave you by making you feel bad about you not doing something they want you to do. I know that he hates when I disagree with him, he told me he did. That made me so mad.
I also feel like if he is smothering me by manipulating me. I'm tired of all his little rules. He told me that when I get my license I can't drive by myself and that I will have to take someone with me. It made me mad and upset because I said I will drive around alone when I have to, and he said then I don't want you to get your license, as if he can stop me and has a right to.
Well....right now he's avoiding me because I was wearing a lip gloss that he didn't like this happened like 3 or 4 days ago.... He's upset because according to him the lip gloss looks like "penis ejaculation" and it "made me look like a sl*t". The lip gloss is just very shiny. He told me to take it off and I didn't listen to him. He said that "I love drawing attention to myself". It made me upset how he spoke to me, and I hate how he constantly adds in these little ignorant remarks about everything. I didn't take it off because I do have the right to wear whatever I want.I figured if my lipgloss did look white, I would just spread it around; make it blend more.
It made mad how he talked down on me. If he didn't like the lip gloss he could have said to me, the lip gloss is making your lips look white, it looks weird, rub a little bit off or blend it with another one. But when he said it looks like something a sl*t would wear, that really ****** me off.
This happened while we were waiting to go home in a train station, he ignored me for an hour as we waited.....He sat next to me on the train and ignored me there too. Then this guy sat in front of us .He was in my class when I was in 4th and 5th grade and was in the same school as me 6th- 8th grade. Anyways the guy looked back at me ( I didn't even notice) and my boyfriend flipped out and started cursing him out and they were arguing and my bf was telling him not to look at me. The guy told him that he thought I was someone he knew before (which is true) I was sooooo embarrassed at this commotion that was happening in a public place.... I told my bf to stop. He was completely wrong for doing that. He sat through the whole train ride with an angry face looking as if he was going to kill someone. Then we changed seats before we got off the train to avoid problems with the other guy, and when we were in another seat he looked at me and said, didn't I tell you to take that ***** off (referring to the lip gloss again).
The day after I called him and we argued, he told me I looked like a sl*t because of my lip gloss, the call dropped ironically as I was telling him never to speak to me again. He called me last night to check if I was home "cause he cares so much about me". In my opinion he was making sure I was home rather than just checking.
Right now, I'm unsure on whether or not I want to be with him anymore, and remembering everything that happened makes me mad all over again. I'm so sick of feeling this way.
I'm really sorry about the long post. I just had to vent out to someone and hear some opinions about the situation, what his problem is and what I should do about it.
Im really sorry mods about the double post....I don't know how to get rid of one.