hi all - i've been going through a really tough time. i broke up with my boyfriend of three years seven weeks ago tomorrow. i can't seem to feel any better. i've done it all - spend time with friends, read new books, new hobbies, pampered myself. i just can't seem to shake him.
long story short, i dumped him but we are very much still in love with each other. however, he had no respect for me or our relationship. he didn't treat me well and he did something to me that was unforgiveable (I dont want to get into that but trust me, the breakup was justified...even he admitted that he screwed up royally). even through all of this, i want to go running back to him but even when i was in the relationship i knew it was wrong, so why do i want him back?! i have never felt this much pain in my life. i am so lonely and the anxiety is killing me. i thought this was supposed to get BETTER over time!
there are days where i am ready to get up and start fresh - i feel so good. but inevitably i end up feeling like i did when i woke up this morning, lonely, depressed, abandoned, hopeless and panicked. i can't stop crying.
i just dont know what to do - i feel so hopeless.
any advice would be great.