I haven't always been strong, but thanks to a failed 5 yr relationship that almost ended up in marriage, I have learned to never let a man know he has you. He will take full advantage. Then it's over. It sounds like you may be better off without him. It's hard to let someone go, but you have to know it's in your best interest. You sound strong enough. Know that you'll have your good days and your bad days. Whatever you do, do not contact him. Contact me instead
Good luck and good reading! The book will seriously have you laughing hysterically!