Egads, replying to my own posts again. Well it has been less than 3 hours and already I feel a weight lifted off of me. I think I'm going to be okay this time around. I mean, after what happened last year, this surely has to be easier. Especially since it has been riddled with problems and I've not been 100% happy and I really shouldn't discount myself that way!
I want to be his friend. We started off as friends. We have a band together. We have lots in common. It's good. The only boundary I have, at this time, is that we don't talk about our social lives (that include opposite sex) around each other for a bit. I am going to be fine, fine fine!
I have a lot of issues to work on. I am ready to get started on making myself feel good again and without the umbrella of a man. I have a "TO-DO" list and I'm starting now by change of perspective!
Thanks y'all who have offered advice -- the good, bad and ugly. Every perspective had some truth to it whether I wanted to believe it or not.