Re: Waking up
Ok, you have waken up - this is great, but you don't need to become so bitter, so pessimistic, so frustrated, so hopeless now. In one word, don't be so serious about life, and so definitive about what you see on the surface of other people's lives. To be realistic doesn't mean to deny that life can be fun, no matter what.
My only advice to you is:
- to keep doing things that are useful to you and to the world at large;
- to keep pursuing self-knowledge (the more you know/learn about yourself and the more you develop your own talents and skills, the greater the chances are for you to become a more satisfied and more attractive person; however, you don't have to boast, because boasting leads to envy);
- to keep helping other people, even if your help is not readily recognized. Do voluntary work, if adequate, or get to know people who have gone through the same pain as (or maybe even more pain than) yourself. You may finally decide that you have indeed very little to complain about.