How to get rid of the hurt caused by the person you love the most and wanted for years telling you he doesn't want to be with you and can live life without ever talkng to me again.
If I had done something bad, like cheat or lie, I could understand.
I did nothing wrong. I simply loved him too much.
I gave him months to think about us. I started seeing him. Then he doesn't want it again.
He left me so many times.
What is wrong with me.
And yesterday when I asked him if he felt he had done anything wrong, he said no.
I gave him months and now he wants me to leave him alone after two weeks of talking.
Yesterday he moaned about me being half hr late for his birthday last year. We werent together and I was giving him time. Last minute he said I could come over to go to an event because his friend couldnt make it. Ii travelled two hours, sat in traffic which made us late. I spent so much money on tickets. Yesterday he moaned about me being late that time.
Been messaging. He started getting nasty - being abusive so I told him I would be cutting him out for good this time.
He just sent me following messages:
"If you cut me out, Ii'll live with it. That's fine if you want to, but I don't want to be with you anymore. It wont' change. I've thought about it and there's nothing more that can be done. That's my decision, don't ask me, it won't change."
I asked him to tell me he had no feelings.
""I don't have any feelings, just accept it. Why are you chasing someone who doesn't want to be with you. I'm at work can't talk till late."
Well after that how can he think I'll want to talk anymore?
I won't be replying. Not even to say that's it, I'll be cutting him out.
How to deal with the hurt. Yes, I have cut him out, and time may heal, but is there anyting else I can do?
Everything hurts. The whole past hurts. He is so wrong for me.
Only last week I was saying we could go away for his birthday in a few weeks. He said no. Now he has booked time off work to travel and see a friend.
I know it's over, but how to help myself.Ii don't want to go through this again
I can't believe I am back here yet again to not only where I was two years ago but a year ago exactly.