Re: I'm really in bad shape: "I am not good enough for anyone".
I had a chance to talk to my couseling staff, last night, and it was helpful. I need to forgive myself for my own anger of myself. I may make some other appointments with them, though, to continue discussing these things.
andiesq70, I appreciate what you said. And it is true, . . . . and is what scares me about myself. I don't want to be that kind of person who is always negative. . . . . . . . . . . . . Hmmmmm, maybe I should take some sort of Zen type of inner look, focusing on who I actually am, rather than what I SEE myself as.
It is just a very hard . . . . addiction (for lack of a better word) . . . to overcome, because it has been something that I struggled with pretty much all my life (self loathing), well, since I was in junior high, anyway, when I wasn't "one of the popular people". So literally YEARS of programming to rewrite and inner toxicity to cleans. I want to be happy with who I am, all around.
EDC means EveryDay Carry...........because everyone should carry a small light with them all the time.
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