This could turn into an epic story but i will try to make it as brief as possible!!
I met my husband aged 17, married at 21, and now have 2 lovely children aged 5 and 2. The relationship with DH has gone downhill from the beginning; he was violent and abusive even when i was pregnant with our first child. I got the usual it will never happen again etc and as with most people in that position i stuck it out( I am now 30 BTW).
Even though the actual physical violence had subsided it was replaced with controlling behaviour. I have been diagnosed with depression for the last 4 years, have tried counselling that did not work for me at all and i tried to make it all better by myself.
The climax came on the first of march this year; my husband said i has stolen money from him and this small argument turned into a large one with mud being flung from both sides. this was in front of the children and i knew at that point that they should not have to see this- i left with my children that day.
My friends mum put us up and more than 28 days later i am still waiting to be confirmed as homeless never mind being offered a house for me and my children. there was no way my DH would have left the house we shared and so it was my only option.
He works offshore and we have pets which were with him so i agreed that whilst the kids were on holiday with grandparents i would house and dog-sit. We have been civil since i left and i have never stopped him seeing the kids. He says that he has had this month of being on his own to think very hard and wants to change for good- he admits that he has been violent, controlling and generally an a******* towards me and he hopes that i will be able to forgive him. He says he does not want us to get back together straight away but he hopes that over time i will love him again (as he knows that i don't). After all the years I am finding it hard to believe him which he says he understands.
Just before I came to house-sit i fell out with my friends mum and she basically wanted us out, so now we really are homeless (lucky the kids are on hols!)So he has now also offered to move out of the house so me and the kids can move back in and he will go and live with his mum.
I'm looking for any help, advice or suggestions on what i should do as i am so down (almost feel like topping myself right now) as I cannot make a decision. Do i move back with the kids so they have a roof over their head? Will this send the wrong signals and make me look weak again? Do i take him seriously? Is this all going to bite me on the butt in the future?
Please, any help will be great as my head is filled with sawdust at the moment- any views will be greatly appreciated