It's me again with the same problem as before, lonely maried woman with two kids and husband is infatuated with his brothers wife. Your typical everyday problem right? I sure hope not I truely feel for any woman who has to go through what I have been putting up with for the past 3 1/2 years. I want so bad to leave him, but I love him very much and I don't want to do that to my kids. Today is our 12th anniversary and he worked midnights last night, I thought he would come home from work and we would have a nice breakfast out and a little time w/o the kids. So, just as I expected, he calls me from work and tells me that he is going to work over and wont be home until 1:00 this afternoon. Well, I try to work with it and make it work, send the kids to his moms and have a nice lunch waiting for him and then, you know, what most married couples do. Well, not this time, not even a kiss on the cheak, he did buy me some of those daisy's that you can get at wal-mart, don't get me wrong they were very nice, and at least they were still alive, which is more than I can say for the marrage. But then he went to bed, I do understand that he is tired, but it's our anniversary, and he didn't have to work over and he doesn't have to try to break his neck to make his brothers wife notice him by the way he acts so much like a leave it to beaver dad when she is around and as soon as she leaves, the smile is wiped off his face and he stops his idle chadder and goes right for the remote and TV is his life. I could and have stood right in front of him w/ my pants off and he will ask me to move cause he can't see, talk about feeling like that maggot barf I told you all about last time well I feel worse than that. I'm not fat and I am not ugly, in fact I used to modle, not that that makes me beautiful by any means, I just mean I am at least worth looking at and he doesn't. I feel lower now I know that there is no man worth all that, but, I've already had a disturbingly unhappy and dangerous childhood and here comes the man of my dreams, and now it seems to be all gone, I have nothing left for me, I think that my depression has made my kids unhappy and they would even be better off w/o me. I don't know any more, I will try I guess, But I can't keep this up forever and I wont! If you have any advise On this rather depressing situation, PLEASE help!! Thank you for taking the time to read this.
[This message has been edited by minerva (edited 08-18-2002).]