Please forgive me for saying this but I have been reading your posts for a very long time and I am very concerned that you are selling yourself short with the men in your life.
You seem like such a caring and intelligent woman but it seems you do not get any respect in return for what you are giving. I wonder if maybe past relationships have made you cold and it seems you do not think your worthy of a complete fulfilling relationship and that all men are the same.
I think you can do much better than just getting a roll in the hay when ever this guy chooses to come over. I think you have a lot more to offer and deserve so much more as well.
I do understand how you feel though...sometimes I read your 1 liners you post on here and I can't help but chuckle...maybe I am seeing a lot more of me in your thoughts than I care to admit!!
We need to take a stand for ourselves girl!!
Best wishes to you!
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