| | can't figure it out.
Has anyone been married and thinks it is over before it really started, but found a way to make it work and be worthwhile? Confused, been married for a year, together for four. We have lived together pretty much the whole time, I was nineteen when we got together. Before we were married, I got pregnant, but that ended due to genetic abnormalities, due to his faulty genes. I married him even though I was not sure he was the one, I though at one point he was, and for the most part things are good. We have always had financial problems. We are night and day sometimes too. I am really serious about school and work, he is a huge slacker. He is a sarcastic joker all the time, and though I like humor, he is just not funny to me sometimes. Since we have been married, I have tried to find the love we once had, but to no avail. I feel like it is all my fault for saying "yes" when I was not completely sure. I do not want to get a divorce but, I want better than what I have now.
I constantly think about what is to come for our future. I want it to get better not worse, I want our love to grow and not fade, but I don't know what to do.