friendly strong person

i agree. it sounds like you have some issues that would cause problems in ANY relationship. tearing up your home is NOT normal behaviour. nor is abusing other people physically, verbally, OR mentally.

relationships should be about getting along, without having to compromise who you are (or who you want to be) too much. Relationships are about making your partner's life richer, better, more enjoyable, more fun, relationships are about making your partner and yourself BOTH happy.

if you love the man you are with now, and he is willing to give you a chance to make things right (and that's up to him - you may have pushed him too far for him to take you back by now...), then DO go see a doctor, and TAKE the steps needed to normalise your life again and get back to being the person you liked (and he liked) you to be.

if you're happy being angry all the time (sorry i know that's oxymoronic) then you have to have to respect his wishes not to see you any more because your behaviour is affecting not only yourself but his life as well.

i went through something similar to what you are describing. i once had a girlfriend who i lived with and who was an angry person, was angry at some of the things that had happened to her in her life, who was incsecure about herself, who also had a bit of a chemical imbalance, which affected her personality.

i did like her a lot, but to live with her and go through the mental abuse was very draining, and ultimately the undoing of the relationship.

it sounds like if you were to go see a doctor, and take the medications you need to control your thyroid problem, then you could get back to being "normal" and "happy" and also happy with YOURSELF.

why WOULDN'T you do everything in your power to be at peace with yourself? once you have THAT, then you can make peace with those around you, and enjoy a relationship based on the things it shouldbe based on: love, caring, comfort, compassion, thoughtfulness, mutual respect, mutual affection, and making each others lives BETTER.

good luck...!

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