Firstly, I'd like to express my gratitude for anyone willing to read this... it seems I cannot talk to anyone about my problem
It's such a relief to finally spit this out:
My husband is driving me crazy!!!!! We are essentially unemployed (self-employed in the construction industry) and things are just getting worse by the day. Every day is the same routine; get up, get dressed and do very little. When I try to go out and do things, like TRY to get us some work (not easy), and go to the office to pay bills (plenty of them!) he constantly harasses me via the phone, "When are you coming home", "Where are you now?", yadayadayada... I'm ready to throw my phone away!!!!
When we are home together, it's all about him. I feel like I cannot have a moment of peace! I cannot even watch TV anymore unless I want to watch 11 hours of the weather channel or motorsports... so, I cook, and clean and am basically bored to tears.
We have just moved into a new home, to add to our tension, and I'm just not feeling "homey". My DH is keeping busy with some hobbies, and of course I try to join in, but not really my cup of tea. I have been waiting patiently for him to get my craft room in order but it's like he doesn't even care to do so.
I don't even know what I'm asking for here. Sympathy I guess. I love my husband dearly, but I think deep down I'm blaming him for our predicament, and I just can't seem to let it go. I usually am tolerant but lately I'm crying more and more (privately) and haven't had a good night's sleep in weeks.
How can I start rebuilding this relationship before it all goes south?