this is my first post, only just joined
basically, i have been with my boyfriend for 4 years now, and it has been the best time of my life, we do everything together, and we are really good friends as well as being in a relationship.
the cheating happened just before our 2 year anniversary, he was having an affair with a good friend of mine. whilst this was going on, i went out with my friend and it seemed like nothing was wrong however she then started being bitchy, dropping little hints etc, and then i confronted my boyfriend about it, and he denied the whole thing, and because i was so in love with him i told myself it was my friend being jealous and she was lying, however deep down i knew it was going on i just didnt want to admit it. shortly after it was eating me up inside and i dumped him, but only a couple of weeks later i took him back because i love him. my boyfriend still hasnt spoke to me about it and everytime i ask him about it he gets mad and says just forget it and wont talk to me, and to this day i think about it all the time, and it gets me upset and makes me question why im still with him.
its hard because i dont want to talk to him about it, because im worried about the pain ill get when i do, knowing exactly went on and the details would just kill me, but i think its the not knowing of it all thats constantly ******* me off
i dont want to split up with him but i always question why im with a liar and a cheat
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