So, this is my first time posting here. Hello, everyone. I'm sorry it's about such a silly topic, but after looking for advice in other threads, I am just desperate. I'm 19, almost 20, and for an entire year, my boyfriend (23) and I have been happily committed. We started off as best friends, and continued as such through our relationship. He has been cheated on many times in his past, and his insecurities started to show a few months ago. After our year mark, he became insecure and possessive. He says it started with him getting cheated on, and then continued when we first met. I had been interested in another guy when we first met, and my boyfriend saw a conversation between him and I before we were together.
Well now, just Tuesday, I found him doing something that hurt me horribly. I snuck up behind him on our college campus to give him a hug, because he believed me to be in class. I glanced over his shoulder, and saw him on his phone. As he panicked and tried to hide his phone, I saw him talking to another girl on his old myspace.... He had asked her if she liked the pictures she sent him, and she made it clear that the pictures were very sexual.
I'm honestly at a loss of what to do. I have that awful, hollow, betrayed feeling in my heart, and I really feel like it is over. I know he immediately was ashamed in himself, and for the past few days he has been doing everything possible to get me back. He was honestly my best friend, and I really felt like he was better than most men in the world. I really felt like he was above all the shortcomings of the world, but I am just torn apart. I know pictures aren't that big of a deal, but I'm scared to trust him again. He hid a relationship he had with a mutual friend before, reasoning that it was 'casual, and just didnt mean anything'. I gave him another chance, and I'm really afraid of going any further, but I'm also afraid to move on. I have invested so much of my heart into him, and I know he was serious with me, but I feel like he willingly threw it all away. Am I overreacting? Definitely need advice
Maybe we can all become friends?