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I was diagnosed with OCD when I was in 8th grade (I'm 23 now). I have never been into outward rituals, It has always been internalized i.e obsessive thoughts.
I have been dating a great man for almost 3 years and we just moved in together about a month ago. I have always had doubts about dating him, usually occurring when I am menstruating. Recently however the thoughts have become much more frequent and very distressing. I go back and forth between wondering if I should continue to date him or wondering if we should break up. It causes me so much anxiety, pain and worry that I find it hard to function at times. He is my first serious boyfriend and we have a wonderful time together, lot's of love. I worry a lot about how different we are and wishing that he could be more like this, or act more like that. When I really think about it I can't imagine not being with him right now. He is extremely intelligent, sweet and so understanding about what I deal with. I'm having a hard time distinguishing between my OCD and my actual feelings. Has anyone else experienced this? I feel as if I'm going insane. Please help me!