Re: His anger is really coming between us
You need to realize that it's nothing that you can do to change him. He has a very serious rage problem and you're the one getting the outbursts. It doesn't matter what you do, how well you do it, or how much to his specifications you do it, because he will always keep finding things wrong with it. That is reality. Reality is that you won't ever please him because he is mentally ill. It doesn't matter how much you love him, you're not going to be able to change him ever.
Listen, this is the same old story that i've seen hundreds of times on this message board. I've been on this board a long time and i've seen the women giving every excuse under the sun for why their boyfriend or husband is always angry and it's always the woman thinking she can change the man's temper. The answer is no, that won't ever happen. In none of those instances did things ever get better, in fact in every instance it got worse, sometimes much worse. You're going to sooner or later end up another statistic if you don't get out of this relationship. You can love him all day long until the cows come home but he is a horrible boyfriend and a bad person and the smartest thing you can do is get rid of him.
Your story is no different than the hundreds of others just like this on here. It never gets better, that is reality. To think anything will ever change for the better and stay better is living in fantasy land and has no bearing on reality. It's time you start realizing that and leave him now before he completely destroys your self esteem and possibly physically hurts you.