 Cry or scream?
I diagnosed myself several years ago and told my doctor to give me some Permax. He did and I take it. The problem is that he seems to think that there are no side effects to taking more than I need. "you'll just get dizzy" he says. Well, now I know that, besides that being true, the other side effect from taking extra for extra situations is that my body doesn't want to go back down to the usuall dosage once I up it for more than a day. Compounding this is that I got laid off and lost my insurance. Permax is $11 per pill. TOO MUCH. I'm currently sitting here going crazy because I refuse to become a slave to a pill when I think that there might be certain lifestyle changes that may remedy the flare ups.
I also find myself either lying in bed whimpering while I explore all the ways that I could move what ever part of the body is saying "let go of me - I want out of here" or feeling like I could use this leg, foot, ankle, arm or shoulder energy to bust through walls like the hulk. Right now I should be in bed sleeping - waking up in a couple hours so I can take my kid to the circus. Instead my legs are playing field hocky against themselves, flying out from under the chair and then suddenly recoiling.
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