satur9ine

I was on Geodon for 3 years until I developed EPS, which was a very frightening experience that lasted for 2 days. I was on a rather high dose of the drug, but as soon as the EPS occurred, I was abruptly advised to stop taking the drug, which I did. I have had severe anxiety and depression since late March which was when I stopped taking Geodon. I see the Psychiatrist tomorrow. I hate going in to tell him that I am feeling terrible, that this is the lowest point of my life (so far), and the antidepressants have not helped in the slightest. He offers ECT for med resistant depression, which I absolutely refuse!!! I have withdrawn from everything. I can no longer function normally. I was accepted into nursing school and had to turn down the offer as I became too depressed, too nervous, sleeping excessive hours. My concern is for whatever reason that the Geodon was effective for me. It was used as best as I can explain as an atypical anti-anxiety medication. I am currently taking 4mg of Klonopin (clonazepam) per day which does almost nothing for my anxiety. I take it because I am addicted at this point; to decrease the dosage by .5mg is agonizing. The 90mg of Remeron was supposed to help. Needless to say, it hasn't done anything but make me sleep. I really don't know what to do. I fear the worst - that I have schizophrenia that has gone unnoticed and misdiagnosed as other disorders were treated (unsuccessfully): major depression, anxiety and OCD. I was always considered strange and eccentric in my younger years. I'm scared. Maybe I should suggest Abilify? I'm sure he'd be reluctant to prescribe Geodon again.

Jeff

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leave alone
leave alone 'cos you know you don't belong
you don't belong here