Wonder if I'll ever not be a newbie, joined a lot of Schiz boards lately & I'm newbie,newbie,newbie! Rookie? Well hello. I figure the more I join the more I'll learn I hope. I can't talk to anyone in my personal life, they run in fear or go overboard the other way...so these places are my support. It really does help me & it gets me thru the day...& night. I am Schizoaffective, Bipolar. Feeling blah, blah, blah today & paranoid. Usually I joke around quite a bit, when I'm more normal. Hello to everyone!
If I'm so psychotic & irrational why do I come up with logical conclusions to things that happen? Someone gave us a cake that I didn't really want because I didn't think I could trust this person, but I didn't know what to say. I was hungry at a later time so I had a few bites-good! Shortly t herafter I felt sick & also sick in the head, hearing things, etc,. so I threw the cake out & got angry & dug up the bottom of the pan with a steak knife.....I've thought for a long time that a certain someone bugged our house with some kind of listening devices. This morning I was alone & I heard a strange "beep" in the kitchen. Unrecognizable. I tried to find a good reason-checked my cellphone, looked to see if my husband forgot his pager & it was beeping...nothing. I think it was one of those listening devices. It's hard to know who to trust. I've supposedly hurt some family members & they're vindictive enough to seek revenge, they've been that way as long as I can remember....& there are a few other groups of people after me...
Last edited by makeworldgoaway; 05-23-2006 at 06:21 PM.
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It is still considered irrational because the cake really wasn't poisoned. The thing is, you can convince yourself it is. And when you do, your brain can make itself sick because of nervousness and worry.