r12las

You are not stupid, because they are really there in your mind. You can see them. Just because you can see them does not mean that everyone else can, and also it does not mean that they are actually there.
Your mind sees them, and that is very scary for you. Medication can definately help. It doesnt help when they remove the stickies because when they do it makes you very frightened. You have to start trusting the fact that your mind may not always being truthful to you. Brains are very complicated and you can't always believe what they are telling you. Is there a tiny posssiblility that you can believe that your parents and children are right? Its like taking a vote. If the majority don't see them, then surely there is a tiny possibility even though they seem so real to you that they might not be there? Do you trust your parents and children to tell you the truth? If there is the slightest posssibility that that you can try and trust what they are thinking, then take the medication and trust that these thoughts will go away. Its a bit like the 'monster in the closet' to a child. The child may be convinced without any doubt that the 'monster' exists even though you the parent can show them otherwise. I don't doubt for one moment that you see the devil and his little helpers, and that this is very frightening, as is the distorting faces, but would life not be better if you could think to yourself about the possibility that they are not actually there. From what I can see of peoples previous experiences, the right medication in the right dose can make your life so much more manageable and less frightening.
I really feel for you, and hope that somewhere inside you, you can try to trust what your loved ones think may have some truth in it, and even though they might not be going the right way about it, they really do have your best interests at heart and with their love and support you can find some peace and be able to live without fear,

Best wishes and big hugs

r12las xx