I could understand you perfectly. I also have a hard time spelling too. I just look it up on google if I have trouble remembering how to spell something. I just put in definition of and then the word I am trying to spell. Maybe this will help you.
About what you said.., That sounds terrifying enough just seeing it. Then actually finding out that it was documented as a real demon. I probably would have gone back and later after claming down a bit..would of bought the book and studied it.
I hope no more demons come to you.
It's freaky hearing about it from someone else just now because this morning I was awakend by my dad knocking on my door. (I am living with my parents right now because I have no other options at this point in my life) But anyways.. I was half asleep and leaned up to see who or what it was and started screaming because I saw something that wasn't my dad nor was it human. It was this demonic looking devil sort of thing. Glowing skin like laulva and black eyes. My boyfriend laying beside me woke up and started screaming too. I looked away and then to my boyfriend thinking he saw it too and looked back at it and it was gone and then I could see and hear my dad. I got this terrible feeling afterwards like it was the end of the world or something.
Then he realized it was just my dad. Anyways it freaked both of us out after I told my boyfriend what I saw after he asked me why I was screaming like an animal.
Ok.. well .. My main profound good experience was about what I was talking about in my original post. I was around 12 or 13 and was constantly reading my bible at the time. My life was going fairly well at the time and I knew the bible like the back of my hand. I could flip to any book by name. I knew where they all were. I would write and write and pray and pray every night and particularly every chance I got. One night I had been praying and writing and thinking..and drifted off to sleep. Suddenly I awokend from my sleep and felt a presence in my room. I looked beside me and saw this sparkling creature that look very close to a human but shinny and pretty. Almost like an acrobat from a circus. Or simalar to a clown but not your typical clown of corse. I'm guessing it was a female but then again I wasnt sure. That wasn't the point. The point was it was so magical and beautiful. I don't know what else to call it other than an angel. But it came to me and talked to me for awhile and told me not to worry about anything. That she/he would always be with me.
I have also had alot of experiences where I have felt good energy or bad energy. It could be any random/normal places I go. Well thats pretty much all I can really recall right now.
I wanted to ask are you taking any medication for schizophrenia? Have you delt with it all your life? What makes you so sure there is a God out there? I have been on all types of medication for the last 3 years and through time i've gotten better and alittle less insane.
Now I don't believe in meds to help. I think taking a pill only dulls your brain and blocks things that should not be blocked. I feel much better off all the pills. But that's just my own personal feeling.
Hope you're doing well.
I hope my this message was easy to read.
I look forward to hearing back from you!