Re: Derealization and Depersonalization ??
I thought I'd talked about one of my depersonalization experiences since I said I would. The subject matter isn't too great, but here goes:
I had a very sick 16 year old cat that I had to put down. When the vet gave her the shot it seemed like it was taking forever to put her down and in my mind she was screaming. Also it looked like he had her hooked up to an IV because there was a tube coming somewhere from the ceiling. I was freaking out because I thought the medicine was burning her and was pleading with my vet, with my eyes, to stop. I was standing with her with my hand resting on her but in my mind I was standing against a back wall looking on.
Later I mentioned to my husband this experience and he told me she went down quitely and quickly. I got mad and told him I was there and I knew what I saw. After some time I realized he was right and it was just me. Anyway, it was a very traumatic situation and I believe that's what brought the dp on.
I also had dp at a gospel concert and much of the time I was standing behind myself looking at myself and the crowd. At one point I was on stage with the main guy, Bill Gaither. I thought my psychiatrist was seated a few rows behind me and he was explaining to the crowd (telepathicly, sort of, but not really ??) what was wrong with me (since they knew something was screwy) and what I was doing. There was sooo much that went on in those 4 hours I couldn't begin to explain it all. Anyway, I wish I could go into more detail. I'm going to see if I can get a topic started on dissoiative disorders if I can figure out how to contact the moderators.
Last edited by AmVan; 05-14-2010 at 11:44 AM.