Originally Posted by cerajoan
Usually for a thought disorder, they will put you on an antipsychotic medication, and they really do help for that, they clear your thinking very well. If it helps at at all, in your posting here, your writing is very clear and organized well, no derailment or anything. Also, for your inability to feel any happiness, I think that is called anhedonia. Have you tried antidepressants? Because mood stabilizers may not really help that.
I understand the loneliness. I have that very bad too. I will keep returning to this forum if you want to write more. It is helpful to find others who understand each other's suffering. And nice to meet you.
Thank you for your post. It is nice to meet you as well.
My name is "Jared" BTW. I don't like this "Stu 687" nonsense. I just forgot my UN and PW and had to reset. lol.
Yes, I have taken many, many antidepressants over the years in every class (SSRIs, NDRIs, SNRIs, etc.). I was diagnosed with social anxiety disorder when I was 16 and, with the exception of a 2 year stint, have been on medication ever since (I'm 23 now). No antidepressant has ever helped to any noteworthy degree... even before I developed this psychotic disorder ~ 3 years ago.
I've seen at least a dozen psychiatrists and have been diagnosed with several disorders, but have never been properly treated. Now I'm at a very, very nice clinic and see a team of doctors who have been testing me hard to try and find out what's really going on in my brain. I trust these doctors. There are none more reputable in my state or the surrounding area.
I'm on Trileptal now, along with a low dose of Seroquel XR at night and clonazepam in the morning and at night, and they do help. I am no longer as paranoid as I once was and am not suicidal anymore, with the exception of a few minutes after I wake up from my nightmares, but after I swallow my meds I stabilize. I've been on Abilify before, but it did not help and actually caused severe cramping in my neck and back. Hopefully once I'm officially diagnosed I'll start taking antipsychotics that actually help me.
The psychiatrist who prescribes me my meds (I don't know the official term for him.
) thinks that if Trileptal doesn't start helping enough I should go on Depakote, an then if the Depakote doesn't work I should go on lithium, and then if THAT doesn't work I should undergo ECT, which I'm actually not too afraid of TBH. However, I suppose it's really all up in the air until I am officially diagnosed, and he definitely wants to wait for an official diagnosis before I undergo any invasive treatment.
BTW, I've never had any delusions other than some pretty severe hypochondriasis about a year ago, so I probably don't have schizophrenia I don't think. But, honestly, I don't know if delusions are a necessary symptom to classify someone as schizo, so maybe. Who knows?
Thank you so much for your response. It's given me some much needed hope.
Other questions or comments are more than welcome.